When I dusted off this blog and decided to write about HiCaliber back in 2017, it was just me needing to offload what was on my chest. No moles, no help. Just me. It seems somehow appropriate that I close the HiCaliber chapter of this blog the same way. Just me. I’ve seen a lot of speculation, talk, and general noise about who did what, what I thought, what my motives were and who I was for months. Most of it was just that. Noise. This is the story straight from the source of how it all went down as far as my involvement and process. Forgive me if this gets a bit long, I still have a lot to get off my chest.

Kill spot at HiCaliber
May 2017. That’s when I dusted off this blog after a 3 1/2 year hiatus. Little did I know, I was grabbing a tiger by the tail with that post. There wasn’t really a mission or master plan, but it also wasn’t out of nowhere. HiCaliber had been a rescue I’d loosely followed over the years. I’d even given them a shout out once upon a time and featured Manson’s videos on the Starlight Sanctuary train wreck way back then. (Manson wasn’t the one that sent them to me. I’ve never had contact with her as far as I know). Yes, I kinda thought Manson was rough around the edges and a little bit of a gunsel but without looking too deeply at her, I figured she was doing more good than harm and maybe that actually was the case way back when. Then, HiCaliber started popping up on my newsfeed more and more. I’m guessing this was due to their algorithm bumps and her paying to boost her posts, but I can’t be sure. I’m not that tech savvy and anything computer related I still attribute to magic and try not to apply reason to it. At any rate, the more they came across my newsfeed, the more squinty eyed I became. Aside from the weekly cry seshes, what struck me was the constant state of crisis. It just didn’t ring right for me and my spidey senses started tingling.
Then Snuggles happened… Nothing about the Snuggles situation rang true and it really started to stink to high heaven when they went into damage control mode spinning this tale on how that yes, they did trade this horse to a kill buyer, but always planned to get him back. Yeah, because that’s a thing rescues do. I could have even suspended disbelief and gone on with my life but close on the heels of Snuggles came the whole Slaughter 11 debacle. Y’all remember the last minute fundraising effort and dramatic save culminating with the `collapsed’ and strategically placed horses on the ground heaving from what appeared to be heat exhaustion. I always meant to write that whole mess up as a throwback post after I resurrected this blog, but those wacky horse killers at HiCaliber kept shitting their collective pants and I never got around to it. What I did get around to was documenting everything and sorting out exactly how it all happened and adding it to the file of fraud. Suffice to say it was a set up from jump street and the fact that it coincided with Romney Faye’s relationship with Dumbass Darrell is not a coincidence.
After these incidents, I got my dig on and found out who `Voldy’ was and started tracking things. Initially, there wasn’t a lot out there on Facebook other than a defunct screen shot group. I think it might still be in existence but never updated. Apart from that, the only thing I could find was a few mutterings in advocate groups and the advocacy groups I mostly lurked at are anti-slaughter groups. I’m not and never have been very active on Facebook or any social media as far as being an active participant. I can’t even remember my twitter account password and haven’t updated my status in nearly 2 years. However, I questioned and bitched about HiCaliber just enough to join forces with some other advocates. Real ones, not armchair ones.
Despite what has been said, or you may have heard, I did not get `inspired’ to dust off this blog. I got extremely pissed off and needed to vent. It took me about 3 days to even figure out what my password to this account was. (I actually forget what it is again, so please stop trying to hack it as it’s a pain in my ass to go through a gazillion random post-it notes stuck all over my house). Remember that Snuggles and the Slaughter11 stuff went down in the summer/fall of 2016. My first post back was in May of 2017 and the reason I was pissed off is a bunch of us had been gathering information, compiling information and NOTHING was happening with it. If anything, it felt like The Manson Family was gaining momentum and the body count was becoming alarming. When they pulled off the OTTB20 shit show, I was triggered. I’m a racetracker born and bred. (yes, Maggot we know each other and that’s why I laugh at you) so you fuck with OTTBs and lie about them, I’m not going to let it go. Throw Satan and Doughboy into that mix and I am going to the mat with it. Simple as that.
I figured I would just post a bit about the OTTB20 sitch and then put this blog back in mothballs. I was actually shocked at the response those posts got and completely unprepared for what was to follow. Needless to say things snowballed. The OTTB20 became 40 and more. Pretty much everything about that mess forward is documented on this blog. I don’t need to go over it all again. That’s not what this post is about. What happened behind the scenes was a literal outpouring of information almost as if I’d opened a floodgate. All of a sudden, it became safe for people to speak out against HiCaliber without fear of reprisal from the mob mentality of the village. I have always allowed people to post in the comments without registering here and I never turn on their IPs to look at unless I have to block them. I tried to keep things as safe as possible to speak out and it worked. Did I ban a few? You bet your ever lovin ass I did and I’m proud of it. (I see you, Stacy Kendall. Get some diaper creme for that butthurt). I have never cared if you’re a villager who wanted to come over here and state your side of things. A few of them have. Agreeing with me is not required either. The only thing I ever insisted on is to be respectful in presenting your ideas. Come over here with your guns blazing and I’ll take away your bullets. During the whole course of the HiCaliber era, I think only about 4 of you got banned. It’s an exclusive club.
Back in those very early days I was winging it. I had no moles or even considered getting them. Lord knows The Manson family was arrogant and sloppy enough to give all the ammo I needed back then. I had one person that was working with me and for sure helped loads with memes, clips and ears out in all the groups. I also joined forces with Stealth Mole very early in the game although not in a mole capacity. One thing I want to make clear is that I never once reached out to anybody to be my mole. I let them come to me and I’m so grateful they did. OG Mole was the first and was very quickly followed by others. Some stayed with me longer than others. OG rode it to the end with me along with a few others we’ll get to. I will forever be grateful to the longtime insiders that took a chance and trusted me. Some had tidbits of info while others stuck it out and risked a bunch. I felt bad every time I saw people accused and vilified for being moles that weren’t. (Leah, I’m so sorry you keep taking hits. As far as I know, we never communicated) Other moles were hiding in plain sight and stayed that way. I tried to make it comfortable for people to come forward and I always, always checked if what they were giving me could be posted. Sometimes I couldn’t post what they shared and that was fine too. There is a lot of information and `receipts’ that exchanged hands that have never seen the light of day and won’t until the AG does whatever it is he’s going to do with all of it. Some people who came forward had been dedicated villagers that had actively hated me and my blog. I’m in absolute awe at their dedication to the animals that they could set that aside and reach out. Thank you. You all made a huge difference and more than once I felt completely humbled by your advocacy and trust. My hope is that when the dust all settles, I can meet with some of you and thank you in person. You have my undying respect.
While we’re on the subject of moles, I’ve seen a lot of blather from the village idiots about how could they stand by and watch these atrocities being committed and say and do nothing. Of course these are also the same brainiacs that have suggested that the condition that property was left in was `normal’ and one of them even suggested that HiCaliber had increased the property value. (I’m not even kidding about that one. I have the screen shot). Clearly these people have no concept on how cases are made. Do they think an undercover cop makes a bust the first time he sees the law broken? Nobody goes down for what they might do. Sometimes you have to hand people the rope and sit back. You have to bite your tongue and look at the greater good and it sucks. It’s heart wrenching and it’s horrible and every single mole and ex HiCaliber person that spoke out deserves respect. I can only imagine what witnessing some of those things first hand must have been like.
I would be remiss if I didn’t mention Dixie. She was another one that reached out to me very early on offering her help to in doing more than just getting information out there, but actually doing something with that information. Dixie is a really well-known and respected advocate and she gets things done. This was not her first rodeo exposing a fraudulent rescue. She was the one that took care of the reams of evidence and organized it. She’s the one that knew exactly how to package and present it and she got the result. Did other people unrelated to the blog report stuff? I’m sure they did. I hope they did. I’m strictly talking about the information that came across my desk and that was handed to us. It was no small task, but despite a whole bunch personally going on for her, Dixie put the animals first and I firmly believe the CVMB and AG cases wouldn’t be as far along without her. I miss having Dixie here to bounce stuff off of every day, but she’s here in spirit and she’s still working for the horses as she can.
I bet you’re wondering about the auction team and the birth of stealth mole. The core team at auction was Stealth Mole, Hollywood Mole and Crash Mole. Sometimes they were joined by moles who will not be named and Rogue Mole. Every single one of them did their part, but I gotta bow down to the big three here. They knocked it out of the park each and every time and it wasn’t fun at all. There is so much footage and pics that may not make titillating blog fodder but they most certainly made the case. Auction days were extremely stressful between people sweating it out in the backs of vehicles and others risking confrontations with the Manson Family. All of us trying to coordinate over messenger and via text and trying really hard to get that money shot as the Manson family scattered to the wind in an effort to hide their dealings. They had Manson call them `cuntfaces’ right in front of everybody at auction among other things. One of those times was because one of them dared to bid on a horse they wanted to help out. Apparently it interfered with the HiCaliber grift or something. The auction moles did most of their work out of their own pocket and for no glory other than they were trying to help animals and do the right thing. They didn’t just go in one or two times but many, many times. The big three will forever be in my circle of trust. If I had to pinpoint the one thing that `broke’ HiCaliber it was what the auction team got done. They completely took HiCaliber out of the game at Ontario and by doing so, they severed off their major source of fundraising. They also keep going back randomly to document the conditions for the unfortunate souls that are being run through there.
While we’re on the subject of the circle of trust I feel I need to have my say about some other things that are playing out social media. The whole Jennifer Marek as a sacrificial lamb drama. The fact is that Jen is not associated with this blog and hasn’t been for the better part of a year. I’ve never met Jen and she doesn’t know me. We’ve discussed her lawsuit only as far as to say that it’s a slam dunk for her because she is not me and never even moderated this blog or holds any responsibility here. Why should anybody give in to the likes of Maggot filing a frivolous suit because she wants to the honor of unmasking the blogger? It’s not going to change the truth of what I wrote and the last time I checked there is no law against telling the truth and having opinions. If finding out an anonymous source’s identity was that easy, don’t you think we’d all know who leaked that stuff about the White House by now? The fact is that I have been supportive of Jen in this situation and supporters of this blog have contributed to her legal fund to the tune of around $2000 as well as in other ways. Nobody has hung her out to dry. We just don’t all hang our dirty laundry out for public commentary. What is grist for the rumor and gossip mill is no concern of mine, but know that I can ALWAYS back my shit up. I just don’t play those cards unless I have to. Maggot doesn’t just get to pick a random target and get her own way. That’s not how it works and I have every confidence that Jen will not only win that lawsuit but likely will win a countersuit for harassment should she go that route because she isn’t me and never has been. It really is that simple The other suit really doesn’t have anything to do with this blog so I can’t really comment on that. I guess if I was Jen, I might have done things a bit differently as far as poking the bear, but that’s her stuff, not mine. I will be supportive of her seeing this through as I always have been and she knows it, so miss us with your drama and speculation while shit gets handled.
I also want to talk about the Horror Page. I don’t think it’s any secret I haven’t always been a fan of the antics on Facebook. I bet it would surprise y’all to know that I’ve worked with them a number of times. While I don’t like drama and all that goes with it, I know their aim was true and we ultimately wanted the same outcomes. There just happens to be more than one way to skin a cat and leaving it in a freezer ain’t one of them. (see what I did there?) Rogue Mole helped us out immensely on a few occasions and I am grateful. My gratitude extends to other members of that group who I know stepped up in ways they never will talk about and are still doing so. My hope is that they handle all the details the next time a SoCal rescue shits its pants and needs intervention so I can sit out! I’m not going anywhere but I will be returning to more hit and run posts and advocacy. I’m going to leave the years long projects to others for now and the gals over at Horror are more than capable of taking that on should they choose to.
From my perspective, nobody was speaking out about this shit show back when I wrote that first blog. I don’t know why that is or what changed, but the tide did turn and no one person did that. Many voices did that. I always tried to keep drama off this blog even though yes, I did slip sometimes. You can only take so much provocation without striking back. I had a lot of people emailing me and wanting things. Some wanted info, some wanted to share info. I quickly learned to keep my circle really small and I did that intentionally. In the interest of credibility, I refused to work with certain people who claimed to have the goods or would get them. Some of those people that couldn’t get what they wanted from me ran straight to the dark side and bitched. Some are still bitching because I didn’t do things how they thought I should. None of them can ever say I didn’t keep their confidence. I always did that no matter how done I got with some parties.
I’ve been accused of hating the media. Not true at all. Almost from the beginning I’ve had offers from a few news outlets to talk and it’s just not my thing. Everything I’m willing to share is here on this blog. There is a big difference between a blogger and a reporter. A reporter’s job to report things that have already happened and try to remain unbiased. As a blogger, I’m not bound by those shackles. My `job’ was to make things happen and the team I worked with did that. Without them the reporters would have had nothing to report. Reporters didn’t file the case with the AG, Dixie and others did that. They didn’t file with the CVMB, again, that was Dixie and various other people. Reporters cover stories that bring them ratings and what brings ratings? You all bring the ratings. We, all of us on the `hater’ side of things, made this story worth covering and continue to do so. Now it’s time to let the media take this out to the mainstream public beyond the horse community. The more viral it becomes, the flashier this case gets for the AG to slam dunk.
I mentioned this blog has been around since 2012. It’s true. Just go back through the archives because there is a lot of really good information on it. It always had a loyal following even on hiatus, but it exploded with the HiCaliber stuff. In the last 1 1/2 years there has been nearly 3 million hits on this blog. In the early days of the HiCaliber saga I toyed with the idea of monetizing it and the plan was to give at least 50% of whatever it brought in to different rescue each month. I even had one person tell me that I absolutely should and not feel bad about pocketing it because I earned it. I quickly abandoned that idea because I never wanted anybody to think I did this for any personal gain. I left a lot of money on the table by not doing so, but I’m ok with that. It was the right thing to do. I knew that no matter what I did, the defenders of HiCaliber, the cockblockers and turd flingers, would turn it into something ugly and gross. It seems that I’m right since Pasterfuck was still yipping about me monetizing it not so long ago because he sees ads on the page when visits one of his 89 times a day to take screen shots for his binder. (BTW, I think that binder qualifies me as a published author, so thanks PF please send the royalties to MOP and TGC). The ads belong to WordPress and the money goes to them as far as I know.
Another thing I’ve seen bitched about is why none of us haters ever stepped up and helped any horses. Boy howdy! If they only knew! I personally networked horses into the double digits and I know other haters that did too. I’m guessing more horses went to haters in this past six months than anywhere else. Trust me, the haters stepped up in spades for the HiCaliber horses and it wasn’t easy task, but you know it was done for the right reasons because you don’t see a single one of them being fund raised for or gloated about. They are being loved and cared for just as they always deserved. Don’t bother emailing me about them because I’ll never tell. In fact I’ve already forgotten.
Why the anonymity? Because this blog has never been about me. You all see the complete and absolute fuckery that goes on back and forth over on Facebook and all that does is detract from the issues and take the focus away from what is important. The animals. As I’ve said, who I am won’t change the truth of what I wrote about. I don’t have any skeletons rattling around in my closet and I don’t much care what people I don’t even respect think about me. My anonymity has allowed me access to information I otherwise wouldn’t have and my anonymity allowed others to feel safe in coming forward to me, hence the `confessional’ suggestion of this blog name. If people don’t agree with how I did things or my choices, they can start a blog, take on more than two years of investigative work and present and do it the way they think it should be done Fill your boots. My delivery or `style’ may not be for everybody, but that’s the luxury of being a blogger. I get to be authentically me and do it how I feel it should be done. In this case it worked. Love me or hate me, I got shit done and I did it for the animals. I don’t care about glory or pats on the back. That’s never been my style. I just don’t appreciate when others take credit that isn’t their due.
I want to close this off by bringing it back to what this has all been about. The animals. The exploitation, the suffering, neglect and outright torture some of them endured will forever haunt me. If there is any take away from all of this it is to speak up and speak out before things get so far out of control. There were whispers about HiCaliber for years before the final curtain and hundreds of animals were executed in that time. Some months ago, I posted a pic of this very spot where there were some tarps, manure and way too much blood for the death to have been painless. It seems only fitting that we placed a small symbol of our love in that same spot to let them know they will never be forgotten and their deaths were not in vain. Thank you to the Markstein/Fox family for allowing us to do so and thank you to Stealth for making it happen. This was from all of us on the shedrow team including readers and supporters. I’m not done with my advocacy and I’m not going anywhere, but for now I’m closing the chapter on HiCaliber because we accomplished what we set out to do. #IAMSHEDROW #SAYTHEIRNAMES